I’ve been on a short hiatus from writing as I had not been as inspired lately. The lack of inspiration came from not feeling completely authentic in my writing (and life has a way of distracting you). I spend a great deal of my time perusing websites and pages of fellow bloggers and there’s a ton of great information. Information like steps on how to become successful, how to be the best you, or some type of motivational message. Similarly, I had fashioned the blog to be a “how-to” motivational guide. The only problem is that I wasn’t necessarily living it. Even more, I questioned whether or not I believed in what I was reading and writing.
It is so easy to give advice but living it is a whole different ball game. There are numerous books, blogs, and seminars on creating the life you want but I encountered so many people including myself who were not living “the dream”. There was the momentary excitement of inspiration while reading or attending a conference only to return to the lackluster life I had been living. Through my writing, I didn’t want to be like the preacher who tells his congregation to tithe 10% and barely gives 1%. I remember reading about a popular couple that would teach on how to have a successful marriage yet they were on the brink of divorce. If you’re like me, I don’t want anyone telling me how to do something that they haven’t done (or at least trying to do – being fully transparent about where they are in doing it).
In everything I crave authenticity and since I crave it, I think it’s important that I give it. Granted, I’ve done a lot of reading, studying, and living to share wisdom that I have gained but like you I am still “Becoming”. I am a disorganized, socially awkward, somewhat lazy hopeless dreamer. As an idealist (for those of you Myers-Briggs fans, I’m an INFP), I spend more time thinking than actually doing. I also find myself lacking confidence and assertiveness. These are some of the areas of which I would love to improve. Ultimately, I want to live a healthy and wholesome life finding balance (if it exists) with family, career, and spirituality.
As I strive to become a better me, I will share stories of struggles and success with the hope that the stories shared by me and even others will be an encouragement to us all. I love doing things with others who are aspiring for a better self. So! Let’s “Become” together in true authenticity!
If you would like to share your story (success, struggle, vent, etc) and be featured on the blog, please email me at becomingTonya@gmail.com. As always your likes, shares, and comments are greatly appreciated!